Day 5. I miss you.

1. Its easy to say things but doing them is another.
2. Tomorrow is no guarantee
These are the fundamental truths that I will teach my kids from now on.

I miss you. I miss you a lot. I miss those eyes that looks at me so true. The kiss that excites me, the voice that reminds and calms me, the messages that makes me smile. And above all, I miss that intimate time when were together, and the dreams of tomorrow we share afterwards

I wanted to reach out. I wanted to call you. but that's selfish. Let her move on with her own life, and have you find your true knight. The one that is better than me. And if I realized I'm are ready for what you deserve, I will fight a good fight for you, without hesitation, without doubt, without fear..

I dread at that thought of you doing this alone. I should be at your side. I should be fighting with you, and never against you.  I just miss you. take care of your self. take care of what we have.

Day 1

Its not often that you get to a point where you have to act like a Man. the words I love you is often thrown around. I have used it many times and dread at the realization that it means nothing 14 years later. The truth is, words have no meaning, Action does.

So this is day one. Day one that I lost everything. Those 14 years, and the two souls that brought joy defined me. Day one of acceptance, the pain that is in tomorrow. of loneliness, sacrifice and perhaps regret.. Just to show someone, I love her with all my heart. There are no guarantees that she feels the same way. Only her actions can say. 

So I will live a life of hope and anticipation. That tomorrow she sees I'm ready. There are no guarantees and I don't have too many. More than words but action, please love me.